thank you

feeling trapped inside though i dont know why,
cant tell you the reason i could break down and cry,
feeling so lost as never before,
feeling like i should settle some scores.

so here comes the hatred i keep so well hidden,
here comes my blowout for which i can be forgiven,
here are my harsh words so i can feel better,
read every word-down to the last letter.

to the ppl that provided torture every single day,
their own form of abuse each had their own way,
i hate you for the way you made me feel inside,
do you know(or care) that every night i cried?

to my idol for dropping his one true friend,
when his love for another drove him round the bend,
pushed aside by the only person never to judge,
but i carried on...i dont hold a grudge.

to the ppl that took advantage of my nature so kind,
you lot rarely cross my mind,
coz that was your loss and didnt affect me,
i've learnt how to switch of...that's been my key.

brick walls to keep the bad things out,
my music to sing rather than scream and shout,
my ambition for better to drive me on,
but still you all hold a place, you'll never be gone.

you all made me stronger for this i thank you,
you made my view on the world so tender and true,
though a 5inch heel through your temple would have helped me smile,
knowing i'm better than you all has kept my smile.